Haggisboy69 here. At least this forum post isn't being posted in the 'ban hammer' which is a good sign i guess.
So i'm here to wright about everything. So if your prepared to hear everything please read on.
I have relised, that my mistakes on the night which i was banned have taken toll and affect on many people and friends and the community on zedwork also on me. I should not of handled the situation the way i did, i should have logged of and left it for an Admin to tend to instead of me losing the head at a 'hacker or an accociate with one. After these events lots of things happened. Friend ships were broken and community's lost. I lost my tittle as 'trusty' member on the zedwork, therefore i gave up, but now i relise i deserved it, people thought of me differently and rumor going about me trying to take down zedwork or something along those lines. To let everyone no i wouldn't do such a thing to a place that make me happy. But sadly it isn't the case anymore for all these rumors. this is me to say sorry to everyone. iv driven my friends of the server not intentionally but there choice, such as zaharia who the most loveliest friendly girl you'll ever play with and echoesong. Due to the situation of me getting banned they are no longer friends with calzah, calzah doesn't talk to me now due to separate events. All i ask if everything can go back to the way it was. This has left me feeling very very depressed as i had a community thing i loved. That made me happy when i come on to play, Zedwork was my place when times were getting bad but now i feel if so my face is pinned on a 'be warned poster' i wish this not be i understand that my action recently have cause this. i am very very sorry. hope everyone reads this. I have been told recently that i can treat people better, but i dont believe i have treat anyone on the server unfairly, ok sometime i like to mess around with people i would never hurt no one. Seems like the events of me getting banned make me a bad person. I informed zed on the night what was going on, i did this through twitter. But lets get of this subject.... I know some people have stopped donating due to me being 'unfairly' treated i am sorry for this zed and lady but i will make this loss up to you i promise. but the way i was treated on losing my tittle and the reasoning i was banned i fully understand. This isn't a plea to get zaharia unbanned. she was not happy when i told her of the most recent conversation i had with big builder al. He called me a prat, but that's all i remember, i only ask him about the rumors he was saying, but zed and lady sure you can check the logs on that one. I have also been told the way i talk to people also is un-polite, unfriendly but i am sorry i don't relise i do it. But now i have been informed il try my best to talk to people more politely. I am sorry for that also. I am also very sorry for not saying hello to people or responding to them when they message me. I am sorry to bengal and fisher also bigbuilderal, the way i have spoken to and about you guys i am very sorry, also sorry on behalf zaharia for treating calzah the way she has but this due to separate and sorry on behalf of echoesong as well. I know writing this a couple of people will be very very upset with me but i have been advised to do this and i wanted to it. I wanted to clear the air and let people know what happened,If you Didn't know why i got banned, i was because a 'hacker' was doxing me aka looking all my information through my i.p address and i had got angry. This is all being wrote to allow every how terrible and regret i feel for what has happened and how bad i feel for driven people away and splitting the community up, witch is why everyone loves the server. This post Probably doesn't mean anything to anyone but please if you have read and taken the time to read this, it is very appreciated. if anyone has any questions at all i will answer. The affects of the hole situation has let to me haven a handle full of friends lost, i do not make youtube videos no as i don't feel the will to do it, or even play minecraft anymore.
Thanks for reading,
To zed and lady, i am very sorry i have caused all this bother, please don't think of me any differently, im Jasonw898 still the same old chap, but once again lady b and zed i am sorry, i know you guys put alot of work into the server to keep players happy and content. I do thanks you for all your work, and you should have to put up with the behaviors and troubles i have caused.
Thanks for reading this guys.
sincerely Haggisboy69